Today is Valentine's Day, and I'm going to be completely honest, I love this holiday. People think it's such a scam and a way to single the singles out. I'm telling you, you're wrong. I think this holiday is about true love. Whether that be with a partner, friend, family, your dog--just celebrate the love in your life--that deep love that is sometimes hard, but so rich in its gifts. Sam sent me roses today. Beautiful is an understatement. Flowers are so the way to my heart. And honestly, it's not even the flowers, but the thought that goes into them. Getting flowers when I'm at work reminds me how loved I am. And when I look at them sitting on my desk I beam. Literally. I think the warmth from my face and heart make the room warmer.
Spring is coming. I could feel it today. 50 degrees and it wasn't even fully dark when I walked out of the office. It whipped through the city today and I could just feel it in my bones. I am ready. I love the springtime. Although autumn will always be my favorite (there's just something about it), spring is a close second. Spring also means that I am coming up to a year of living here. Yes, I've still got about 3 months, but oh em gee, it's almost here. Crazy. Time flies. And I am a much different person than I was just 9 short months ago. Lots of growing. Lot of beautiful pain--necessary steps to get to where I am. Crazy how you don't know what you're really going through till you're through it. Does that even make sense?
The last few weeks I've been on overload. Going really hard and really fast for a really long time. I thrive in those situations, but I also realized this time how much I miss when I am living in that lifestyle. I'm not as present and I don't like it. I'm working to commit to less things so that I give myself completely when I'm with friends I care about. It sounds selfish, I realize, but I think it's also fair. Do you overcommit? I do. All the time. And at the end of the day, it's just not fair. I think our time is so much better spent when we are fully present and listen to what we need. It's important to invest yourself in people who will nurture your soul--and also call you out on your bullshit.
Working with Project Rushmore has been lovely lately. It's been on my mind a lot--I am hoping for such good things to come out of this group. Everyone is so talented and committed, especially as of late. Our January readings were nothing less than inspiring--to see so many faces supporting the arts. It was nothing short of moving. I'm also working to get a show together with some UNCG alums. I'm really hoping we can iron out all of the details. If you have any advice on anything theatre related in NYC I am all ears. Any tricks are much appreciated. In fact, if you have any advice about anything I'm all ears. I am so far from perfect, and I love input from those who are more experienced. As I get older I become less of a know-it-all and more of a tell-me-your-every-piece-of-advice kind of gal.
Some fineal thoughts--good theatre is worthwhile--expression is worthwhile, you are the company you keep, practice sincerity, realize your worth, and finally, put good out into this world, I know I preach it, but it's true--it is the best thing you can do for yourself. We need to take care of each other--everyone is fighting a harder battle.
Here's to you and your valentine, whoever they may be--it may even be yourself. If that's the case, fabulous! You better treat yourself real nice! And finally, wherever you are, I encourage you tomorrow on your way to work/school/the grocery you turn on your most favorite song and dance you tush off.
